A Life In Color

If you had told me 5 years ago I'd be a elmo singing, mommy group lovin, sippy cup washin, mama I would have asked for your crack dealer's number. But I so am. And dammit I'm happy. And those that have known me for years know just how far away from my old life my current life is. And I have to be honest sometimes I miss those old aspects of my life. But I remind myself that those experiences along with my current ones are full of such color and diversity. And it makes me smile. I led a pre-baby life that will make for some very interesting stories when I'm old. And would probably shock some of my new friends. The fact that I even have those stories to tell is all that matters my darlings.

Recently I found a "mommy group" that has really made such a huge difference in my life and the lives of my family. And I have to be honest I had some pretty ridiculous pre-concieved notions about what it meant to be in a "mommy group". But we are all so very different in personalities and yet so alike in our day to day lives, it's been so refreshing to find that no one judges the other.

Which isn't to say that I don't get nervous about sharing certain aspects about myself. But I know that the other mommies feel the same way. The best part about it though, is that we don't have to know all the details of the past. We are just there for each other in the present. It's a beautiful thing my friends!

One of the things I've been most proud of in my life has been my go where the road takes me mentality and it has lead to to the most unpredictable and exciting places. There was a time in my very inexperienced youth that I had a very narrow view on what it meant to be a parent, I felt sorry for moms in my hometown, I felt like they had somehow settled for something less in their life. And that may have been true for some of them. But as I've discovered. It can be quite the adventure as long as you never lose sight of who you really are and what's really important to you. It can be the most exciting, challenging, scary and rewarding experience of your life. It's not for some and that's okay too. I guess the most important thing we should learn is that fill our life with the color of experience, whatever color life gives you take it and make it yours. In the end it will surround you with the peace of a life well lived.

You Won't Believe What Happened To Me At Ladies Night...

The other night I was ordered out of the house by the hubby and my new dear friend Dez. See they think I work too much, I do too much for everyone else BUT myself. Pshaw whatever gave them that idea I don't know.

I found myself enjoying a little ladies night and having a great time. What made it so great was that at different points in the night I found myself having some incredible conversations with some amazing women. Made all the more interesting because I found myself having one on one conversations that strangely enough ended up with familiar themes. The first part of the evening was spent talking about just how nurturing women can be especially in times of struggle. How complete strangers can swoop in to save the day even in our darkest hour as it did for one woman I spoke with who is going through breast cancer treatment. Later on I had a conversation with a friend about self worth and how sometimes it can be so difficult to feel your a worthy recipient of a good deed.

Things came full circle when I talked with Jamie about how I had to say goodbye to a friendship recently. That life no matter how hard I've fought it has just pulled me in a very opposite direction. That no matter how much either of us wanted things to be different it just became too painful as we were constantly hurting one another. She told me about how there are people who are in our lives for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. As intense as connections may be they always have a purpose and sometimes that purpose runs it's course. It was an expression I had never heard articulated so well, and I thought it was just lovely. Just like Jamie.


The next day I opened my e-mail to find a friendly forward from my friend Melissa's mom and it read.

People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime.

When you figure out which it is, you know exactly what to do.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrong -doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up or out and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and it is now time to move on.

When people come into your life for a SEASON, it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They may bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; those things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person/people (anyway); and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. Thank you for being a part of my life

It's amazing how magical life can be sometimes isnt' it?